Zip Code

Ok, I saw a picture of myself today and I have never looked larger than I do now. I am thoroughly disgusted. I sat there wondering why I do not see the severity when I look at myself in the mirror. 

I was freezing after a cold day watching my daughter play tennis. I decided to take a bath. As I was undressing, I did the unthinkable...I looked in the mirror. At first glance I saw what I have seen all along. Then I turned...what?!  Where did that come from?!  My rear end and thighs had their own zip code. I am not a big fan of looking backward but maybe I need to. Holy cow. What happened?!  How could I not see this before today?!  No wonder my children do not want to take after me. Such an embarrassng thing whenever they say it. People have actually asked what happened to me because I have said I was thin. They do not believe me. Wow. The biggest I ever was while pregnant was 145. So I must be having quintuplets. Oh wait - I am pregnant with fat. When is the due date?!!!

I am not saying this to rip myself apart. I really did not see it. I am embracing it and moving on. I am overwhelmed with the thought of turning this around but that is not going to fix it. 

I did well overall with food today. It was a full day and a depressing day. I cannot live with myself like this. So, it is time to take the unwanted guest known as my butt and escort her to the door. You are not welcome here. 

My devotion today was:

For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. (Ephesians 2:10 NIV)

What are you staring at that is glaring you in the face?  Can you see it?